Voiced Concerns

Zeta Clark, the webmistress of TWL, contacted me this morning to ask how I was doing. This is a REDACTED response to that email.

Hi Zeta

Thanks for the email to ask. I really appreciate that.

Actually, that blog post was during my 2nd physiological break (the 1st in August which led to my 'semi-forced' early retirement from 911 ... PTSD & Depression on top of my "normal" medical issues ... well, it was remain for 3 years to get full pension and DIE ... or retire now to get partial pension and live [which is where I am at] ) which I am still dealing with now.

Believe it may be a med reaction to the med that I was started on in June for my Anxiety. (Yeah, I am a bit of a mess... but what can you expect of wizards ?? )

Anyway, the next day after the blog post was a near drug overdose, so I had EMS services out and the Sheriff took me to the mental health place...... Long story short, it seems like I am having a reaction to the Anxiety Drug, so now I am weaning off of that.

Okay... so that is the HEALTH  issue.

For the Vladi Wizard issue ....

I am retiring the wizard. Or, at least I am going to TRY. With retirement from work came quite a few MAJOR changes, not one of the least being me moving back out to the house I grew up in and the house that I will inherit upon my mothers demise (she's 88... but way healthier than I am). Actually, this is the birthplace of "vladi", my superheroine loving alter-ego (tho he wasn't named at the time), who in 1972 discovered bondage and superheroines and kryptonite and Supergirl all in one fell gut-punch nut-kick to the hormones (at 11 though?!?!?) was 'born'.

I'm rambling I know... one of the good things about retirement AND living in the state of Washington... MARIJUANA!! And, I just took my morning 'dose' to keep me from further puking (pretty much a morning routine), so I am a bit on that first day buzz high

Anyway, I am needing to do a number of things differently to get back into a physical and mental equilibrium which means that the time I have spent doing Vladi things is now to be time spent doing xxxxxxx (only dept collectors and Nigerian Princes call me xxxxxx ). So, one of the first steps is to significantly reduce my wizardly footprint on the community via my internet access/presence. And, though I have been doing the same with my PORN presence in my computers of late, as well (but this has been a more slow and systematic process), doing DA and the Yahoo Groups was a COLD TURKEY pull off.

Of course, I am NOT going to attempt to affect TWL in any way or manner which the request of removing any of my material from there. Vladi still has an important place in the SHIP/SHID community and I am really proud of that and of the people that WE have positively impacted over these MANY FRIQUINE' YEARS!!! (In internet years, much like dog years, we would be like 256 years or such)>. Yes, I can understand how closing out the DA page could be seen as impacting others, that page was only a gallery of appreciation more than a gallery of my own personal material.

That is something that I need to start doing as a photographer (nature and landscapes and journalistic type ... no erotica! [dammit ]). I need to start living outside in the wide open country I find myself in, no longer in my small in city home of 30 years prior (so a bit of that traumatic shift of city life to country), which is also meaning more time away from the computer.

But, finally, in the end, I feel that it is the RIGHT thing to do for xxxxxxxxxx... to (try to) put MY needs, both physical and psychological, before VLADI's needs, which was ... mmmmmm.... I am not really sure WHAT at this time ... I am sure that I will be touching upon this when Vladi is brought up with my psychologist for the very first time (already in my journal as to actions taking ... so sure SHE will ask about it when she sees it [xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx]).

I am going to shoot my return to Scarlet, Dangerguy and Captain Zammo also here, as I am sure that they have been wondering about my fate, as well.

I am not sure how long the blog will last, or how long the vladi_wizard@yahoo.com email will remain active and viable (or even if I am going to close either/both). If I close the email, I will let you know my personal email prior to.

Zeta ... THANK you so very much for all that you have done to, not only maintain TWL, but to take the site to new levels that I had ever thought possible. I feel absolutely confident in the ability of TWL to not only last, but to thrive in the years ahead under your care.

Triply Thank you for taking the time to write and ask! You are the only person that has .. so far.

That is just as appreciated!

Vladi the Wizard

errrr... xxxxxxxxxx

ahhh...xxxxxxx

yes xxxxxxx!

ps ... along with my digital 'porn' that I am deleting (some) and zip archiving (most) [I came to the realization that I am a HOARDER ... a Porn Hoarder! ], I have quite a bit of 'hardware' in the nature of DVDS and books and comics and graphic novels that I DO NOT want to destroy (though, easier to do with the DVD/CDs), but I also do not want them to just go to Goodwill or such. I want them to go to THE COMMUNITY ... either to you to handle as a distributor through TWL in manner of prizes and such, or among my friends ... such as you all... who have a desire and manner of delivery for such goods.

ps2 ... I am going to copy this (redacted) to my blog, as well.